What is Spiritual Transformation Process?
There are many definitions and explanations of the spiritual transformation process, but the truth is that the process is different for everyone. When I look back, I realize that the process started when I was born or possibly even before that. However, there was a certain, very specific point in my life that the world just stopped making sense.
I have worked “very hard” and made “smart decisions” to achieve very specific goals. I got the family, I got the house, the cars, and the career, but I did not feel a sense of achievement or satisfaction. At first, I thought the problem was with me and my attitude. I made endless lists of things I appreciated, I contemplated and meditated on things to be grateful for, I watched countless YouTube videos. Logically I knew I had so much to be thankful for but the true gratitude feeling was not there.
And then one day, the world as I knew it, stopped making any sense. I lost the job, friends and most of the family followed shortly after. The lifestyle went with it. All the things that I previously used to feel successful and valued were gone.
A very dark period of time has begun. Hopelessness, misery, loneliness, and anxiety were my daily guests. Day after day the world was making less and less sense. There was nowhere to go and no one to ask for help.
Eventually I realized that the answer must be within me. How many times have I heard this statement? But it wasn’t until now, when I was literary out of options and hope that I realized that I should look into it more closely.
Now, I really wish I could tell you that this was the moment when enlightenment happened for me and that’s when I realized that we are one with the universe. I also wish I could tell you that instant happiness and peace came into my life, but nothing like that happened. I can only speak from my own experience, but the transformation process is very dark and painful. It is a process where everything that I have learned and practiced needs to be undone and corrected. Over and over again I find myself in situations where my values and beliefs are brought into questioning.
Transformation isn’t sweet and bright. It’s a dark and murky, painful pushing. An unraveling of the untruths you’ve carried in your body. A practice in facing your own created demons. A complete uprooting, before becoming.” Victoria Erickson
My spiritual transformation process goes on. With time I was guided towards books and other teachers that provided some guidance or explanation but in the end, I had to learn to trust something Bigger and Higher in me that was guiding me every minute of my life.
I would love to hear your story. How did you become aware that you were participating in the spiritual transformation process?